The Arkansas State Trooper left my hospital room. I know the look on my face had to say it all. I looked at my mother & apologized for the words I had used. She understood why I would be so upset. I mean, hell, I have been sober for a long time! It was just insulting, but to know I was asked about something I knew wasn’t in that car made me livid. I knew my friend wasn’t doing that kind of stuff, & we sure as hell weren’t. Sounds like a fishing expedition to me.
I had just got telling my mother I wish I could be given a urine test to prove I’m clean when the next bad vibe came bursting in my hospital room. In my mind I’m internally thinking what the hell? More!? I went to school for social work. I know a child protective services worker when I see one. Again, internal monolog kicks in, what fuck are they doing here!? Poker face on, daddy raised a soldier. I got asked about the meth again. At this point I asked if I could please take a piss test. I looked at my mom and said this is the only to make this proof worthy so this stops now! They gave me my urine cup, & due to the iv fluids my bladder was full! I filled that freaking cup up! I slammed it on my table while holding onto my iv rigging that I had to roll everywhere. He responds we will see in a few moments what you’re on in a snarky way, like he knew I was guilty. Let me tell you, nothing better than knowing it isn’t going to pop for anything so you smerk your smile all the way through the wait. Can you imagine the disappointment when it came back negative? I give a chuckle and said get out of my room! He snips back at me with a I’ll be back. I respond, “I’m sure you will. ”
All I can say is wow at that point. Does the picture above look like a family that lives that kind of lifestyle? The nerve of those people. I’m wondering where is all this meth talk coming from. I begin discussing it with my mother, & she can’t figure it out either.
To this day we have never figured out why the questions of meth was involved with this ordeal. I can tell you it felt good to be able to say I’m sober and prove it!
More questions remained in my mind. As time ticked on I began to get more questions in my mind, & what I didn’t realize was so did my parents & my hubby’s mom.